close to my heart

as some of you know, my mama has been having some difficulties with her beautiful heart. a lot has been going on, and she is now the proud owner of a pacemaker...talk about Bling! only one lead is in, they have to go back in a month to attach the other...her heart was too smooth or something. she's had some scares (like a super minor TIA stroke...they can't even tell when that happened. don't worry, she's ok), but she'll be released from the hospital today. she's so excited to get back home to her puppy, Max and her fabulous garden.

my sister, Mae, flew down from Denver to see her over the weekend. they had a great visit. mom can't have us down yet. she needs to settle home. Mia wasn't allowed in the hospital, and mom can't be jostled too much. that's something that i'm not sure Mia would understand. she'd want full access to her beloved Ita. so, Mia and i will be flying down as soon as the dust settles.

i miss my mom. Mother's Day was a little bittersweet this year knowing she was stuck in the hospital. so glad Mae was there. but my sweet mom was in the forefront of my mind all day.

yesterday, i talked with her on the phone while i was reading to Mia. we have a couple of new books on meditation for children...easy reads with gorgeous illustrations. so, i read to my mom, too. she said it was just what she needed. i just want to snuggle up with her on the sofa. my head on her lap and she just stroking my hair...us talking about everything and nothing. i miss my mom.